I wish...

I wish nature is as true as the heaven..

I wish there are no pretendings and lies..

I wish i could cast out every notions i have..

I wish i am not blinded by what i want to see..

I wish  i could see the real truth inside me..

I wish i am not deaf  with the words i want to hear..

I wish i could listen to the voice within me..

I wish i am not feeling numb today..

I wish  God's will  might agree with me today..

I wish.. i wish.. i wish..

He keep asking me bout my past...and i started telling it to him one by one..Waaaaaaaahhhhhh! i am having butterflies in my stomach..

I know he would react negatively..

I really cried thinking bout his reaction...

then he left a msg in my account..

mhal n mhal kita d mo lng alam kung gaano............. at ikababaliw ko tlg f mwla k skin......

And i love you too mhal ko.you change me to be a better person.you are someone whom i can always rely on.ur someone who makes me happy..thanks for everything..im gonna be here for you always.thank you for trusting me and loving me..

And thank you for accepting me, whoever i was in the past and whoever i am right now.

i am so blessed for having you..

Testing us or testing me?

He can't text me anymore! OMG!

He lost his celfone before,now the other one is broken.

And because of that he can't text me anymore and i can't text him..

That's it..

What should i feel?

Is this a problem or a trial? i think it's the same...

But whatever it is, i promised that im gonna hold on, the same way he does.

I'm little upset bout that. But there's nothing else i can do.

And still, at the bright side, we still have chat to communicate..

Why being in a long distance relationship is hard and complicated?

And why am i put in this situation?

I don't have any regrets; i am just asking why..

I just want to cast a bit of my thoughts in my mind...

Because the truth im goona miss his text..

I was so AFRAID!!!!!!!!

It was a very horrifying nyt!!!Heavy rains, thunders and lightnings that crept on the ground..The house was almost shacking!!! There was tornado warning...

There was even no electricty..God please be with us..I pleaded.. The nature seemed so very angry..

And i was afraid..i got a phobia on lightnings and thunders..And because of that i slept with my mom..

I texted him just to inform what was happening..

It was 10pm when i felt sleep..I realy tried to sleep so i wont hear the loud rolling thunders and i wont be horrified on the mad strikes of lightnings...

I woke up at 0830am, its over! Thank God!!!!! The sun is pretty shining..

And i have a message on my cellfone.Oh, he replied.. 

Hope ok naman kau jan ni mama mo...Tkot k p nmn s kidlat, sana anjn ako...Mahal n mhal kita..

Wow!it feels good..another wonderful morning..

HIm........

i chatted with him for almost 3 hrs..long enough..well at first, i wasnt in my mood but then he tried to make me smile and laugh..

again we talk of crazy stuff..

the best thing he said was: he's afraid to lose me and that my feelings for him will suddenly change..

isn't it great!to have someone who loves me too much..

next week, we will be celebrating our 7th monthsary..

i never even imagine that we gone this far and that he is still waiting for my comeback..

im so lucky to have you mhal ko!!!!im proud to say that i have the good guy!

i miss you!!!!!!

mwwwuuuuuuaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!